Dear

Dear _____,

I know I am a stupid girl, but every day (almost every time), you always treated me so hard, not so kind, I always try to be better, I always try to be brave, to be strong, and everything you expected. I have tried so hard, I can survive in your dark world. I can pass the broken street that you give. But, you never see what I have done. You can see what bad things I did, but you cannot see what the good things.

In this world, since 15 years ago, I was born, the God give me its 15 years for life and feel what’s the feeling of the real world. I know, what will I feel, when your close friends come to your house, stole your diary book, and read it as loud as they can until your neighborhood listen it. When someone you believe, spread your private secret. When your friends, make you shy in front of many people. When your friend, leave you, because you don’t give what they want.

I am not a spoiled girl, although I have many psychics syndrome. Yeah, many people have their own ability and lack.

I hate blood, but sometimes, red is very beautiful for me. I hate drug, although when I am sick I really need it. I hate many things, but actually, I cannot life without them. This is my dilemma. But, otherwise, I could not decide my own problems, I cannot think like an adult.

At last, I hope you understand. I just want to be better than before. I know we always have different opinion. But I have my own feelings, my own soul, my own instinct. And I hope you don’t be angry with me. Thanks for everything, but sorry if I never heard about what you spoke. I want to be free, independent, and autonomous. I will always be your stubborn daughter. :)

MeldaHayu